Michael gave permission to post this fascinating perspective about possible underlying meanings behind the symptoms of Parkinson’s.
Robert Rodgers PhD
Road to Recovery from Parkinsons Disease
https://www.parkinsonsdisease.me
I am beginning to seriously considerÂ
that the symptoms of Parkinson’sÂ
are part of a trance.
I am experiencing many moments these days
where I sense I can step out of this box
called “Parkinson’s”.
I am able to feel a little bitÂ
of what it might be like
to step out of this boxÂ
but…
stronger than that…
I can feel what seems likeÂ
an eery state of resignation.
This resignation feels likeÂ
something I “signed up forâ€
a long, long time ago
in a galaxy far, far away.
It seems as if at some point this lifetime,
I became resigned to not growing…
to not evolving…
beyond certain notions of Life…
beyond certain notions of how farÂ
I could possibly evolve this lifetime.
These limitations
(like any limitation)Â
are clearly regardedÂ
as comfort by the ego
and that comfort is palpable to me.
I am beginningÂ
to sense the possibility
that the symptoms of Parkinson’sÂ
are simply one possible configurationÂ
of limitation that I asked to have put in place
when my evolvement reached a certain point.
When I reflectÂ
on where my consciousness was evolving to
before the symptoms of “Parkinson’s†seemed to occur…
one could say that I was living way out on a limb.
Way outside of societal norms.
Way outside of what’s “normally” accepted.
For most of this life, I have played the “black sheepâ€.
However, when I reflect on what life has felt like
since subscribing to the symptoms of “Parkinson’s”…
it feels as if my expanded consciousnessÂ
has placed itself insideÂ
a much more societally accepted framework/box called…
severely debilitating illness.
While many of the people who know me
feel sad or sorry about what I seem to be going through…
there’s a subtle wayÂ
that other people’s sympathy
coupled with my being physically limited
by the symptoms of “Parkinson’s” right now
somehow kind of keeps me a good boy…
a better citizen of the matrix…
keeps me from being more able to disturb or upsetÂ
other people’s status quo apple carts.
I can also detect an identity present:
Hey! Remember Michael?
He got so close to “the mountain topâ€
but just before the summit
he got sick and finished out his life
identified with the body as Self
because he was unable to evolve
beyond a certain point in consciousness
that partly displayed itself as the illusion
of the symptoms of “Parkinson’s”.
MIchael
mday108@gmail.com